Question

How healthy is it to stay living in the same room as the person that just broke you heart because neither of you can live without the other?

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hello readers
sorry its been so long
and i am sorry that this post is going to have plenty of typos but such is life
let me update you
I am single
and it hurts and its lonely
i have spent the better part of the last year in what i thought was the most amazing relationship of my life
i attempted to discuss a concern and came out single
you give all of yourself to another person and learn all of their ways only to find out that your not enough
its not enough

i dont know where to even start picking up the pieces of my shattered heart. it was like glass breaking

shattered
destroyed
broken

and everytime i try to pick up it all falls apart again
I love him
I dont know how to be without him
all i see are the soon to come lonely nights and all of my shortcomings
he was my balance
he filled the spaces where i lacked
listen to me
i am so afraid that i am never going to find that again that no other human being possess the qualities and love that he has
he just doesnt have it for me
i just want to run away
and then i get scared that i am never going to see him again
that i am never going to have those moments with anyone
that it will never be the same
i feel like my life is ending
everything i knew to be real is just a theatre set
fantasy
you go back though photos and watch your image fades out of them - like you were never there
its so real
and i dont want it

i feel empty
hurt
i am going to try to do the things that we had planned - dinners etc
but i think its just going to be awkward and hard to not be like it was
its like sitting back and watching your life happen
maybe he will still come to christmas so i dont feel alone
maybe he hurts as much as me
maybe he cant live without me either
but how do we live without